I’ve had like five or six glasses of wine and I’m listening to Coldplay, so. You know. I know this makes me uncool.
I have a news update: College.
Do you know that college was like a decade ago?
Where are you? How have you been?
Tonight I am longing for a relationship like the one I had with you in college: A time when all we had on our agenda was to form relationships with people of the same age and race and socioeconomic background and interests. Back when we could daydream about our future instead of daily grinding it out.
Mae, Colleen, Talya, Chris, Emily, Jess, Sarah, Meggan, Bryony.
How are you guys? What are you doing?
I have not been really CLOSE with anyone since you. When it comes to friendships at least.
I have dear friends and acquaintances now, but we don’t sit hours in coffee shops talking, discovering new, increasingly naïve layers of ourselves by 2, 3, or 4 a.m. We don’t have a waitress who knows us by name. We don’t hike up to the top of the mountain. We don’t sit on the roof smoking cigarettes until the sun comes up.
I’m a little embarrassed to admit it has been so long since I’ve had FRIENDS. You’ve probably collected a whole host of them by now. Maybe you’ve forgotten our time together.
It’s just that I’ve just been so busy and FRIENDS take so long and they are so weird.
I’ve been thinking of venturing down that path again. A path with friends. I think it is because I quit my job, the job I was learning when I knew you, and I live in the country fulltime now and there is a tendency to FEEL the silence instead of comfortably enjoying it.
Jack Hanna, the governor. Nobody calls anymore, so I am restless.
I am going to find some people, but.
I don’t think it will ever be like it was, will it?
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